WARNING: Not intended for those with weak stomachs.

Many of you know that I have a handsome little boy in my life that I absolutely love to pieces. I couldn't imagine my life without my son. However, I could have lived without the stretch marks and extra flab he blessed me with. He is approaching 11 months here in a few weeks, so I am really struggling with the fact that I still have not lost all of my baby weight. :/ Not cool.

This is why I am going to work hard to lose my extra weight and get to a point where I am happy with my body again. I want to lose about 40 pounds, but really any amount would be nice. I am super nervous to publish this post (in fact, I've been putting it off for the past 3 days LOL), but I know that it will be the encouragement that I need. Right now I am at 168 lbs and I am not happy to show you the time line of my body, but here it goes!

Me and Cody at our senior prom. This was about 2 months before I got pregnant.

I believe this was taken at about 8 weeks pregnant.

This was 2 weeks before I had Ethan. 

(Grab your barf bags, this next image is not going to be pretty).

And now, almost 11 months after pregnancy. Absolutely disgusting.

I am in serious need of some ego boost and self esteem repair. My goal is to be able to wear a bikini this summer without looking like a beached whale. I started using a calorie counter today and I have been going to the gym a few times a week. I plan on starting some vitamins and eating much healthier. I am desperately trying to cut back my pop intake, but I am finding that to be more difficult than I expected. It is a work in progress. I can do this! I will do this!